Peace. Serenity. Grief. I am feeling all this. Sex addiction is a baffling, cunning disease. And I battle it everyday. I resisted the temptation of acting out last night. It was right in my face. And 8 months, heck even 2 months ago I don't think I would've been able to resist. He was persistent, and over a year ago the roles were reversed and I was the one pursuing him. Do I need to finish what I tried to start? No. That is a lie that I have believed since I was 15 and took advantage of by a guy friend. I am in charge of my body. I have a right to do with it what I want and keeping it as a temple of the holy spirit is imperative to me. I am more proud of myself for not giving in than I can even explain. But now I'm feeling a heaviness. Maybe even a wish that I would've given in. To get that hit. But I can get filled by working my outer circle. Blogging, calling women in program, and praying. I know that this is what I need to do and that saying no it will only get better.
Living the life I love
Friday, March 25, 2016
Tuesday, February 24, 2015
One Headlight
Sunday, December 14, 2014
Let it go
Wednesday, September 24, 2014
Anxiety sucks
Over 25 million Americans suffer from anxiety and panic Disorder and I happen to be one of them. Today I had one of the worst anxiety attacks I have ever experienced. One to the point that my body Decided to shut down on me causing dizziness, nausea, rapid breathing, elevated heart rate and tremors. Anxiety is something that doesn't only effect your mind out effects your whole body. It's something that you can't just control by not thinking about things that bother you. After having this episode at work in front of many co-workers and students. It's embarrassing especially when the ambulance is called. But I have to remember that this is something I can't control. I need till take care of myself the best I can a moment at a time.
Wednesday, August 13, 2014
Missing My Friend
Thursday, July 19, 2012
Pinterest craft
Wearing my t-shirt scarf I made! So proud!
Monday, July 16, 2012
Green smoothie
After my work out this is my favorite treat... Flax seed, spinach, frozen bananas, almond milk, protein powder, and peanut butter. :-)